#Strong

when I was a young girl, I always thought I was one of the boys. I would play football, baseball, try to play basketball, I would wear baggy clothes and always hurt myself one way or another. While you’re young, you think that if you can get back up after you hurt yourself, that’s strength, that’s you being unbelievably strong. What you don’t know is once you start getting older, being strong comes in the form of heartbreaks, losing friends, going through life changing events, or getting through life through the most difficult times you can possibly imagine. You have to fight with everything you have to keep standing strong, you put your mind to something and you keep that goal in your mind knowing that this is where you have to get to, that is where you need to be. For most people with chronic illnesses, every day you wake up being as strong as you can. You fight each and every day to wake up and make it through the day. I’ve realized in time that I’m a fighter. I have fought over and over again for my health, my sanity, my peace. Most people may think I’m not strong but I’m stronger then you could ever imagine. I fight with all my power and all my might to achieve the things I need or want done. You have to keep pushing and you have to keep fighting for what you want and deserve. This does not just go for chronically ill either, this goes for everyone who struggles, anyone who doesn’t feel strong enough, anyone who needs that little bit of hope to get them through the day, well this is it. Everyone is strong in their own way and can battle any obstacle that comes in front of them no matter how hard or tough life might get. Keep pushing through and never give up because you might think it’s the end of life as you know it or feel like it but it’s not. The only way to continue to go is up.
Keep being strong,

N. Rarity

Graduate School.

Graduate School. 

 The hardest thing you would ever come across. After 4 long years finishing your bachelors you would think you’re done, but not this girl here. I graduated St. John’s in 2014 and a long 2 years later I decided I wanted to go back to school. My bachelors is in English and I wanted to expand it to what I want my career to be, which is teaching. Now if you know nothing about me, you don’t know that I absolutely love kids. I worked as a camp counselor from 2010 to 2015. I loved each and every day and it wasn’t a job for me, it was a lifestyle. I knew once I began working at the camp exactly what I wanted to do with the rest of my life and that was to teach. Most of my family members are teachers so I definitely inherited those teaching genes from them. Being involved in molding young minds is definitely a challenge and it’s not easy but it’s something I definitely want to do.  

Now, graduate school, ridiculoussssss! Long hours, endless readings, and plus I do my entire coursework online. I work crazy hours so the only time I would’ve been able to go to school is online.  Mercy College, which is the current college I attend is amazing.  The professors actually help you and explain everything you need to do in detail.  I highly recommend Mercy College.  I won’t lie it’s hard to keep up with what is due, when it’s due, if I have any questions I have to wait until my professor emails me back, I don’t get notifications when I get an email or if something goes up, so all in all it’s a difficult task. You have to keep on top of it and days you don’t feel well do not matter. So let’s get into the topic of my health and school. I stress out easily which in turn gets me sick 90% of the time. I could be on my death bed for weeks on end and I would still have to get online, do my homework and finish whatever I need to do. Now, I’m not complaining, but I will tell you it’s insanely hard to even find the strength to get out of bed or to even stare at a laptop. Granted, I don’t have to drive to class or travel in the snow but when you have the biggest migraine in the world and can barely think, it’s the worst. But with confidence and the will, you can complete your assignments.. you can do what you need to do to accomplish whatever you want to do in life. 
As the Fall Semester Begins, I wish everyone luck on their new semester and their studies and may the odds be ever in your favor!
Signed,

N. Rarity